Stress and trusting in God.

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I talked to my sister not long ago about this and how we say we have faith, but our attitudes express otherwise. You can pray every day, read your Bible, and say “Yes Jesus, I trust Your will for my life!” but then when you come back to reality you start snapping at people. Whenever I start being mean and having an ‘attitude’ it’s because I’m stressed out and worried about a million things. It’s like being in a constant state of being ‘unnerved’. At this point of my mindset, my faith is circumstantial because if something rubs me the wrong way I’m going to fly off my wagon (whatever that means LOL! – I was born in a country household).

I will admit I can be a bit OCD about things, if even one or two things are out-of-place in the house, I need to clean them, right then, right now. The same thing applies when I have a to-do list. In the next few weeks I have so much stuff going on and all I can think of “Is everything going to be okay?” I get anxious about it. I think where I’m trying to get healthy, now adding a bunch of dental work on top of that, and now doing a million things at my church, I feel overwhelmed. If I’m being honest, my stress, although it’s a sin in and of itself, turns into an even bigger sin. I start nitpicking at things and I’m not content. I have to constantly apologize for things, just ask my husband and he will tell you. I don’t like being like that and I don’t know about you, but I feel alone when things start piling up. That I need to ‘carry this burden’. I can’t expect anyone else to help. I’m so quick to do my freak out dance that I forget I have God who helps me carry those burdens. I’m not meant to do it on my own. I also need to realize that I need to go to my husband more often because when I told him the things laying on my heart yesterday I just wept on his shoulder. He reassured me everything was going to be okay and I believed him. God’s Word reassures us that everything is going to be okay too and we need to believe that as well. We need to take God’s Word for face value.

No wonder some of us have anxiety, we try handling things that are out of our control. I caught myself yesterday just needing to take a break and breathe. I could feel my chest getting tightened up it was that bad. I wonder how many times I’m going to have to learn this lesson from God. Trust me girlfriend or you guys out there, when you think you’ve got your walk with God under control and you have it down to a T, you don’t. Our faith can be shaken, but let’s not be moved. At the end of the day, all we have is the Savior. When everything falls apart, when everyone fails you, God will still be on His throne in His perfect righteousness. We have to stop looking down and at our situations and look up – our hope should be in heaven. If you feel like you’re playing ‘catch up’ in life, you’re not the only one. I’m there too and I feel like I’m always behind in this world that is always moving forward.

It just dawned on me now that when I had told my sister I had been stressing, she reminded me my worth was in Christ. I thought to myself at the time… “Okay, well what does that have to do with stress?” It has everything to do with it, because the things we stress out about is the things we usually find our worth or value in. We find success in these things going well, whether it’s a relationship or job, we worry about the status – where is it going? We go back to being circumstantial. If you lose your job, if they cut your hours back, if your relationship is failing, if you have no friends, if you don’t know what you want to do with your life, it’s okay. You know why? Because our worth isn’t in those things. Those things change. I’m preaching to myself here and I’m crying as I type this because I always need to be reminded of these truths.

If you need prayer for anything, please comment below. I will leave this blog with a prayer that whoever reads this will find hope again if that’s what you needed today. May God bless you for His glory and remember to trust in Him.

The truth hurts, doesn’t it?

I don’t really think I have a way with words when it comes to talking to people, especially when I play the ‘honest card’. I use to tell people like it was… not taking their feelings into consideration. I was blunt, real blunt. However, since Christ has changed my heart… I speak in love. Trust me, there are times I feel like saying more, but I don’t. I’m learning to not overstep my boundaries I guess you could say.

Sometimes I get in the ‘heat of the moment’ and just blurt it all out even if I think I’ve thought about it for ‘long enough’. What is long enough? Some people say it’s a few hours, others say it’s a day. Hm… but what about when I’m right? And I have a good point to make? Not that I’m nit-picking, but what if this person is doing something they shouldn’t? What if this person is a brother or sister in Christ? Why are we so scared to LOVINGLY tell people what they are doing is wrong? Holding each other accountable just seems so non-existent. I WISH someone told me like it was. If I am being a hypocrite in my faith, then tell me. I ask God to do it all the time, maybe He can use you to get the message across… ahem.

It’s so easy to get offended when you try to talk to someone and they completely blow you off or treat you differently after you’ve talked to them about something serious. I think this especially goes for teenagers. If you want to make them mad, give them sound advice. Give them Biblical advice. When you’re a teenager you want to do things your way and feel right about it. You hate discipline. Admit it. Maybe that’s why some people don’t take God seriously until they get older. Until they’re ready to face their convictions.

I’ll be 23-years-old in July and even though I’m still considerably young, God has poured so much wisdom into me. I don’t care about certain things like I use to. It’s less about me and more about Him. I don’t care as much about what people think of me anymore and trust me… I’ve had a lot of people not like me. It doesn’t make a difference to me though because I’ve had more people like me than hate me. Joyce Meyer says that 90% of people will like us and the other 10% won’t. When you compare the two, which one is greater? That’s the one that matters the most. Everyone is a critic.

God made me the way I am for a reason, so if I’m honest… that’s okay. I embrace the fact that I am confident in who I am, in who He is, and the choices I make. I don’t need to hide behind any lies. If you don’t like me for it, well, don’t let the door hit you where the good Lord split you! Haha :].

I really need to go to bed… O_o 1:38AM. Never clean late at night, it makes you write crazy blogs like this one LOL.

XxX Ashley!