There are some days and even weeks where I just feel… blah. There’s times I neglect getting into God’s Word or spending serious time in prayer. Do you ever feel like you just can’t muster up those feelings to be obedient? You’re just tired, discouraged, full of bitterness, or what have you. I fully understand what I’m doing, I get caught up in my flesh and my feelings and I let that dictate my relationship with God sometimes. One thing I would like to state is that I’ve gotten over the whole “God will love me if I do…this or that” phase. I know His love for me isn’t based off of anything I do. His grace is a gift no one can earn.
I was praying today and just being real with God about my feelings. Sometimes as Christians we tend to base our comfort on our performance with God, but I find it scary that the times I’m doing “my best” I’m more liable to look at myself. I become self-righteous. We have to learn that it’s okay to have our down times, that it’s okay to not be hunky dory all the time. We have to re-learn our dependency on God, that we need bad times and bad things to happen so we can reach those intimate moments with Him.
All I know is that I need God and so do you. Be intentional about your sin. Watch your thinking patterns. Watch the patterns in your life where God is trying to take you, trying to teach you something. We go through life trying to speed through everything, thus we fail to reflect on it’s beauty. My prayers are to really learn to love people despite their flaws, because the only side of people I have seen here lately is their ugly one. *sighs* I know He’s going to use this for His glory, in the midst of your aggravations and hurts, remember Who is at hand. He has His reasons and only we can trust in that. Let’s not lean on our own understanding… after all, it’s our thinking that gets us into depression, anger, worry, trouble, etc. We have freedom in Jesus, so let’s exercise that.