As I started the introduction to this book for the second time, I realized it has only been a year since I last did this 40 day devotional fast by David Nasser. I’ve never went through a book twice, but here we go I guess lol. This book had helped me overcome a lot of darkness in my walk with God, especially when it came to hurt relationships dealing with people. The second time around it is different, it’s about my hurt relationship with God plus some other things I’m struggling with right now. It’s humbling to go back to the basics of Christianity, there’s still so much that God needs to pound into my head and heart. I’ve been complacent, lazy, and too ‘gentle’ with my sin. As Nasser says, Satan is not gentle in dealing with us… so we cannot be gentle in dealing with our sin. Sometimes I think we expect our sin to go away, but how often do we pray for those things that hinder us from God?
The main things I’m hoping God will help me overcome is my want to when reading the Word, intentional prayer time (not praying in my head & then getting distracted), bitterness in my heart towards people, boldness to step out and make friendships with others (can’t disciple people if there is… no people lol), anxiety I’ve been having about my health, and just overall prioritizing my time.
I’m fasting from Facebook since it consumes a lot of my time and let me tell you… it’s not easy. I’ve signed out of the app. on my phone and have caught myself trying to log on twice today (without even thinking about it I was doing this). When I opened up the laptop to type this blog I almost logged into Facebook (again, not intentional, just habit.) It’s really sad how routine I am with logging onto something lol.
Where I put off doing what I’m supposed to and hate dealing with my thoughts… my anxieties… I try to log on a billion apps to consume my time. Where I’ve not been able to get on FB though, I’m on my phone a lot less. I’m kind of ashamed how addicted I am to my phone and the fact I’ve been running from my feelings. I’m only doing this for 40 days, but try giving up something for a week that consumes a lot of your time. You’re going to notice withdraws and be like… “Now what?!”
Something I’d like to share to hopefully help encourage you to get in God’s Word is Isaiah 55:10-11. A lot of us tend to think reading our Bible is a waste of time, but we need renewal. We’re constantly battling against our flesh and we need to put on the armor of God. Nasser says that “God’s word has the power to change lives. If you marinate yourself in the truth of the Scriptures, I’m confident God will do some amazing things in you and through you. Count on it.” God’s promises do not return empty.
“As the rain and the snow
come down from heaven,
and do not return to it
without watering the earth
and making it bud and flourish,
so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,
so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire.”
– Isaiah 55:10-11