It’s been awhile.

It’s been awhile since I’ve written anything, I feel bad for it… but I’ve just had a lot going on in my life, other worries that I need to tend to. Although I enjoy my blog, there’s been no inspiration for anything since my health is bothering me again. I recently went to the chiropractor and I’ve been sore and full of anxiety these past few weeks. I honestly don’t want to go back, I am starting to feel a little better from where he crushed my bones (haha) but I don’t know… I still feel off. Ever since last November where I’ve run into this ‘vertigo’ or whatever you’d like to call it, life hasn’t been the same. It doesn’t feel normal. I’m trying to figure out what that feels like again, sometimes I think it won’t happen until I’m completely healed. I’m still trying to enjoy my life though, even though getting sick is always in the back of my mind. I constantly think about “what if I feel lightheaded and pass out and no one is around” or “what if I die…” it’s a REALLY crappy way of thinking, but it’s what goes through my mind. I honestly don’t want to discuss any diagnoses with anyone. I’ve written on my past illnesses, so if you have any questions then look there. Ultimately I know I’m in God’s care, He sees this and I know I’m not alone. I had to cry out in worship music the other night to feel His presence and peace. Songs are so awesome in how they can express the sorrows of your heart.  (Christy Nockels – “You Revive Me”.)

Any way, I just want to let you guys know I will try to be more intentional about writing and hopefully put up a new makeup blog post soon. If you have any questions or suggestions about things you’d like to see or know about… just comment below. God bless all of your hearts and I hope you have an awesome night <3.

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6 thoughts on “It’s been awhile.

  1. kimmy036 says:

    I strongly believe that if you keep that faith on God then you can endure it. I cannot blame you for thinking negatively because you are experiencing pain but I still think you deserve to be happy. God bless you and I will pray for you. 🙂

    • makeup3130 says:

      I appreciate your kind words, it’s encouraging to get loving feedback from brothers and sisters in Christ. I wrote a reminder to myself not to lean on my own understanding… even though I don’t get why this is happening, God is bigger than my sickness. Have a blessed night precious girl!!! ❤

  2. Jennifer says:

    I hope you are feeling better, these days. I completely understand when you said not feeling normal and the fear of being sick. I was sick for 3months with cold,flu,strep throat,pink eye etc..Each day it felt like i got something else. I recently lost a love one to cancer and my.fear is that i might get cancer. So the fear of being.sick, is the hard part. The feeling of being normal is no.longer, the task is to try and live life thats also a hard part

    • makeup3130 says:

      I know how you feel, I have to remind myself… “These things are not worth stripping me of my joy.” Our life on this earth is so short and we just have to have the right attitude. I thank God for Him helping with my mindset about things, I have been feeling a little better with my health. I can’t say my anxiety has completely gone, but I’ve been praying about it and seeking Christ. I hope that you feel better as well and I’m sorry about the loss of your loved one… I will pray that God comforts your heart and gives you freedom from your anxiety <3.

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