It’s been awhile since I’ve written anything, I feel bad for it… but I’ve just had a lot going on in my life, other worries that I need to tend to. Although I enjoy my blog, there’s been no inspiration for anything since my health is bothering me again. I recently went to the chiropractor and I’ve been sore and full of anxiety these past few weeks. I honestly don’t want to go back, I am starting to feel a little better from where he crushed my bones (haha) but I don’t know… I still feel off. Ever since last November where I’ve run into this ‘vertigo’ or whatever you’d like to call it, life hasn’t been the same. It doesn’t feel normal. I’m trying to figure out what that feels like again, sometimes I think it won’t happen until I’m completely healed. I’m still trying to enjoy my life though, even though getting sick is always in the back of my mind. I constantly think about “what if I feel lightheaded and pass out and no one is around” or “what if I die…” it’s a REALLY crappy way of thinking, but it’s what goes through my mind. I honestly don’t want to discuss any diagnoses with anyone. I’ve written on my past illnesses, so if you have any questions then look there. Ultimately I know I’m in God’s care, He sees this and I know I’m not alone. I had to cry out in worship music the other night to feel His presence and peace. Songs are so awesome in how they can express the sorrows of your heart. (Christy Nockels – “You Revive Me”.)
Any way, I just want to let you guys know I will try to be more intentional about writing and hopefully put up a new makeup blog post soon. If you have any questions or suggestions about things you’d like to see or know about… just comment below. God bless all of your hearts and I hope you have an awesome night <3.