Simply put.

There are some days I am just so thankful I am not God. I told Eric that if there’s one thing God hasn’t gifted me, it’s compassion. I have been trying to work on that for quite some time but my train of thought here lately has been so disgusted. Placing judgment on non-believers is a no-no, but we have a right to judge the actions of our brothers and sisters in Christ. Not their heart, their actions. You cannot read the Bible and tell me that’s not in there, to hold each other accountable. I know I am far from perfect and if this blog sounds self-righteous, then I’m sorry, but that’s not my heart. My heart is wanting people to get it, to love Christ more.

I just don’t understand why so many ‘Christians’ are surface-level in their walk with Christ. Why aren’t they thirsty for wanting more? Why do they care so much about how they appear on Sundays? Why is Sunday the only day people even act holy, yet forget God the other 6 days of the week? Why do people get so caught up in the social scene at church that they start gossiping about others and start divisions? Why do people at church even form clicks, like sit on a certain side of the church because that’s where the ‘cool’ or the… ‘wealthy’ section is? I never even knew half of this stuff existed when I had started going to church. I thought it was about going for God, not other people. There’s a little known fact that if you stay at a church long enough, the dirty secrets of some people’s lives will just be thrown out there like dirty laundry.

Our hearts aren’t right, we’re not dieing to ourselves. We’re living and feeding ourselves full of unGodly trash. We’ve made church about ourselves and less about God. I’m sitting here thinking about the book “Radical” by David Platt (which is a must-read by the way) and how the American church is… I feel so discouraged. It’s not the lack of God, it’s the lack of people serving and FAITHFULLY seeking Jesus Christ. It’s the lack of renewing our minds and hearts. It’s the lack of facing our convictions and getting face first on the floor before God in humility saying “LORD YOU ARE ALL I WANT AND ALL I NEED, PLEASE KEEP CHANGING MY HEART!”. We need Jesus Christ to save us from ourselves, we are far too complacent. We don’t more, we’re fine with having little. We are our biggest enemy. Not just the world or Satan’s lies. It’s us.

AND another thing that has been bugging the poop out of me, but am I the only person getting tired of seeing Christians post pictures of themselves at bars and drinking beers? Like seriously? Where did ‘be of a sober mind’ go? It’s still in the Bible.

DIY Versatile Eye Makeup Remover

Organix Nourishing Coconut Milk Anti-Breakage Serum

Price: $6.99

Where to buy? Ulta ; drugstores

The Organix coconut serum is great for repairing dry hair and making it smell amazing, however I found another use for it – makeup remover! A lot of girls like to use olive oil as an alternative to makeup remover and seeing as this is an oil… it works just as good and it doesn’t smell bad! I don’t have any proven results, but if this is supposed to be good for our hair, won’t it be great for conditioning our eyelashes?

I love how my makeup comes off so effortlessly with this! A little goes a long way and if you’re wondering… no, this doesn’t burn your eyes.


– An old makeup remover bottle or travel size bottle less than 6oz.

– Organix Serum

– Bottled or purified water


No matter what the size of your bottle is, pump the Organix serum until it’s 1/4 full. Fill the rest of your bottle with water. The end result might look cloudy, but the oil and water will eventually separate from each other. Like with any makeup remover, always shake up the bottle WELL for at least 5 seconds before use. 

This is my little bottle after being shaken up :]!

Ugh, people.

People never seem to fail to fail you. I feel like when people do things for others they have a hidden agenda to ‘get what they want and leave’. They use people. They only think of themselves. They are so self-absorbed that they have NO idea what is going on in someone else’s life. They act like it’s a chore to go help someone. They act like it’s a chore just to SPEND TIME with someone. I feel like it’s that whole ‘Me, myself, and I” factor. I wish half the people I knew treated me the way I wanted to be treated. How I treat them.

I told Eric (my fiance) tonight, finding friends is the hardest thing to do. When you try to invest in people and befriend them and they want absolutely nothing to do with you. Or they treat the so-called ‘friendship’ you have with them like crap. It hurts. When it’s convenient for them, they will be your friend. It’s not like dating where the guy is mostly either afraid of commitment or just ‘isn’t that into you’. Friendship is more personal. It’s like your personality (you, the person God created perfectly in His eyes) is being rejected. Unloved. Unwanted. Rejection just flat-out hurts.

Sometimes the people who reject you are even related to you and that sucks even more. I have been praying for the longest time to have compassion for people, to think of others. To love on them like I want to be loved on. To call people beautiful because I want to be called beautiful. At this point I feel whatever. I will go on loving people, but by the grace of God. If I had to choose, I would tell everyone to get bent, haha. God still has to do much with my heart because it’s still sweet and sour, like those little Sour Patch Kids commercials lol. Oh man… I’m done ranting. Good night!