I guess things aren’t bad in and of itself, but they’re not necessarily good for you either. It all goes back to 1 Corinthians 10:23 “You say, “I am allowed to do anything”–but not everything is good for you. You say, “I am allowed to do anything”–but not everything is beneficial.” So just because you can watch that reality tv show, read those make-believe fantasies, listen to that music, go to that friend’s house, have a girl’s night out, or whatever… does not mean it’s good for you.
I had to question my heart earlier as to why I get so annoyed with people not being on my same level of thinking. Facebook is just one of those things in particular that ‘gets my goat’ because people are now going through this phase of liking pictures. “Like this picture if you know who this is”. I’ve seen these pictures about deformed ‘cute couples’ and we like these pictures to what… pity these people?! Act like we have a good heart because we’re not judging them for what they look like? If you quote something from a popular movie, you’ll get instant likes. When you post something about Christ, well… good luck even getting anyone to read it!
I’ve been sharing a lot of Way of the Master (an Evangelical ministry) videos and just sharing things from Scripture or my heart and it seems as if no one cares. Not that it’s about me, but why don’t they like more important things like God?! Or why do their statuses consist of it being all about them and what they’re up to… and not about God? I feel like Christianity today is so surface-level, even within the church… people who call themselves ‘Christian’. I know everything I’m feeling can shift towards the dangerous side of self-righteousness, but I don’t think it’s heading that way. I’m acknowledging how I feel and I’m praying about it.
I just feel like I’m at that point of Philippians 3:8 with God… “Yes, everything else is worthless when compared with the infinite value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have discarded everything else, counting it all as garbage, so that I could gain Christ.” Seriously… I don’t see the point or value in most things anymore, I know that sounds depressing, but I think it’s just a matter of seeing where my priorities are. I’m in no way judging anyone because I know that I was the same way a few years ago before I took my walk with God seriously.
Deep down, I feel alone sometimes with my emotions. Proverbs 14:10, “Each heart knows its own bitterness and no one can share in its joy.” If you’re anything like me or just a female for that matter, you’re going to know how this feels. Your heart feels something, intense, and you want to share that with… anyone, anyone who will just GET what you’re saying. But then you just get frustrated when you try to seek that person or expect others to befriend you and your feelings. There’s just no point in expecting anything from anyone, your heart is your heart. It’s yours for a reason and only God can know where your heart stands. And guess what? That’s okay. I know we want people to relate to us because it’s almost as if sharing in that burden of whatever it is that’s pressing our heart… I know it makes you feel even more lonely, but I think we forget to look at how beautiful our situation really is. We don’t even realize just how intimate this is, that only God can know our heart. I mean really know.
The next time you find yourself teetering over the edge of self-pity, just remember that you’re not alone. I know how you feel and more importantly, so does God. We can share an intimacy with Him that no one will ever be able to have or even know about :)!