Eye primers and bases.

Eye primers are intended to make your eyeshadow more vibrant (meaning the colors will intensify) and last longer! If you don’t believe me, I’ve got pictures to prove it! It’s amazing what a primer or base can do for your eyeshadows… especially the less pigmented ones (which are typically the drugstore kind). Just think of it as painting a wall in your house, you need a  base or ‘primer’ to make your actual paint stand out.

Has this ever happened to you? You’ve done your eye makeup and a few hours later… yuck! Your eyeshadow has lines and your skin is now visible again? This is called creasing and it is not pretty! The oils in our faces can break apart the makeup we put on it unless we use a primer to prevent streaking, spotting, or fading. Typically, eyeshadow will do this in the crease of your eye (wherever your eye folds)… hence the term ‘creasing’ haha. Some people don’t have a crease, that’s another blog another day. Any ways, see why primers are necessary now? Don’t worry though… you do NOT need to spend a fortune on a primer. Just because the word ‘primer’ sounds fancy, does not mean it needs to be expensive. 

Urban Decay: EyeShadow Primer Potion

Price: $20.00

Where to buy? Urban Decay ; Sephora ; Ulta ; E-bay

As you can see these primers come in 4 different colors, I have the Original formula that dries clear. If you’re needing coverage, the color Eden has a matte nude finish. So for you, that means if you have any discoloration, veins, etc. it will cover it like a concealer. Don’t get me wrong, I like the Urban Decay primers, but they’re tricky to work with at first. The product is not bad in and of itself, it’s how you apply it that sucks haha. I hate being particular about something, so I prefer makeup that’s effortless.

How to apply – This works best on its own (meaning do not put
foundation or concealer on your eyelids). I usually do a full face of foundation (even on my eyelids) and I defeat the purpose of using this primer because it just makes it crease. You should only use a tiny morsel of this product because too much of it can be a bad thing. They have this same primer in ‘bottles’  also, but you will get more product in these squeeze tubes… plus it’s more sanitary! Just put a small dot of it on the tip of your finger and rub the product in.


Elf: Mineral Eyeshadow Primer

Price: $3.00

Where to buy? Elf ; Target

You can’t beat the price for this product, I think it works just as good as the Urban Decay primer… if not better! This comes in 2 colors, Sheer (which I have) and Blush. Sheer has a matte nude finish to it, so just like the UD Primer in Eden… if you have any veins or discoloration, this will give your eye a wash of color and even it out. Blush has a more cool pink tone to it, so if you have cool colored skin (more on the pink/red side) this would work best for you.

How to apply – It has a felt tip applicator which you can apply directly to your eyelid. However. if you are concerned about germs you could always touch the tip of the applicator with a CLEAN finger and rub it onto your eyelid instead. If you’re wanting to use a brush (for whatever reason) apply the product to the back of your hand and take your favorite brush and applicate from there.

**PRIMER TIP # 1** With any primer or base, you only need a thin layer of the product to have it work. Don’t get primer happy! LOL!


MAC Paint Pot

Price: $17.50

Where to buy? MAC  ; Macy’s  ; E-bay

This comes in 9 different shades. I have mine in the color Painterly, it’s a matte nude color.  Although the price for this product can seem frightening, you really do get what you pay for. It’s 0.17 fl oz of product, so this sucker will last you quite awhile. I’ve had mine for almost over a year and I’m not even half way through it. By the time you keep replacing cheapy primers, you’re going to be spending the same amount of money and not get as good of quality. This is my absolute favorite primer because your eyeshadow will not even budge!

How to apply – With CLEAN fingers, gently rub the product until enough transfers onto your finger so that you can apply it to your eye. The heat from your fingers will make it easier to pick up the product. You can use a brush if you prefer, but I like using my fingers. Brushes will allow you to have better control over the product (where it is being placed) and it is more sanitary.


Maybelline: Eye Studio Color Tattoo Eyeshadow

Price: $6.99

Where to buy? Ulta ; any drugstore

These come in 10 different colors. I have mine in Audacious Asphalt (it’s a dark shimmery gray). These cream shadows are said to be compared to the MAC Paint Pots because they are so long-lasting. This girl right here can agree to that! I love these and they are way less expensive too!

How to apply – Unless you get this in the color white, this eyeshadow primer should only be applied to the lid of your eye. If you want a more sheer (very little color) application, continue rubbing the product until it lightens to your liking. This product is really creamy like the MAC Paint Pot, so it’s your choice in whether you want to apply this with a clean finger or a good blending brush like the MAC 217 Blending Brush.

**PRIMER TIP #2** Just because most primers come in nude colors (flesh tone of a white female) does not mean they’re  limited to just them. It doesn’t matter what your skin tone is unless you’re wearing a very natural eye to where your eyeshadow won’t really cover the primer. It should not be noticeable that you are wearing the primer in other words… It’s just there to help, not to stand out.


MAC 217 Blending Brush

Price: $22.50

Where to buy? MAC  ; Macy’s  ; E-bay

Although I hate the price… nothing compares to how great it makes your eyeshadow look! It’s an investment :]!


Physicians Formula Shimmer Strips Gel Creamliner (Brown Eyes)

Price: $10.99

Where to buy? Ulta ; any drugstore

Okay, so I don’t have brown eyes… but I love the colors in this little trio. I would say the price sucks, but you are getting 3 different gel eyeliners. If you’re not brave when it comes to wearing bright-colored eyeliners, use the liner as a base for your shadows! I don’t care to wear crazy colors, but the purple for example would be beautiful to create that purplely undertone to your shadow. I applied a black eyeshadow on top of it and it gave it a little somethin’ somethin’ ;]!

How to apply – Since this is a gel creamliner, it is extremely concentrated in color so you only need a little. The pots to these liners are small, so you’re going to need a q-tip or brush to retrieve the product.

**PRIMER TIP # 3**  When using your fingers to apply primer, try using your ring finger instead of your index. It it said that it is the most ‘gentle’. Our eyes are sensitive, so don’t be rough with them!


Elf Essential Shimmer Eyeliner Pencil 

Price: $1.00

Where to buy? Elf ; Target

Creamy and affordable pretty much sums up this eyeliner. When you’re working with an eyeliner as your ‘eye base’ you need something creamy that isn’t going to pull on your eyelids. You are going to hurt yourself and cause unwanted wrinkles overtime from all of the extra tugging if you do not use a creamy formula. A bonus to this affordable eyeliner is that the cap has a sharpener on it. Ha, talk about convenient!

How to apply – You can apply this baby directly to your eye, just be gentle and color in like you would with a crayon. If you want a sheer application, just take a clean finger or blending brush to soften it.

**PRIMER TIP # 4** Always let the primer sit for a good 30 seconds before you start applying the eyeshadow, otherwise it can look cakey (spotted) in some areas and not good!

Down below are swatches of the products I listed and what they look like with that particular primer. I used the Maybelline Expert Wear Eyeshadow Quad in the Amethyst Smokes and their black color in the palette for the example, enjoy!!!






411: Eyeliners!

This can be a scary topic for most girls because finding the perfect eyeliner isn’t easy and can be discouraging when you have an eyeliner meltdown! I’m going to show you the different types of eyeliners I use, how to use them, how much each product  costs, and where to get them. I hope this helps! Comment below if you have any questions or comments.

Probably the most commonly used eyeliner out there are eyeliner pencils. The problem that most girls have with these eyeliners is that they ‘melt’ or wear off. The heat from our body (face) melts the oils in the product and before you know it… raccoon eyes! Just like with any creamy makeup product, you need to set it with a powder. If you are using a black eyeliner, apply a black eye shadow on top to prevent meltage. Is that a word? It is now! Same thing goes for a brown eyeliner, apply a brown eye shadow on top of it. Your eyeliner will last longer and you won’t have to reapply it a bazillion times a day. My favorites right now are…

Urban Decay:24/7 Pencil Eyeliner

Price: $19.00

Where to buy? Urban Decay ; Ulta ; Sephora  ; E-bay

The price for this product isn’t exactly ‘budget friendly‘, but these are the most creamy and long lasting pencils I have ever used!  The great thing about Urban Decay is their color selection! I use their black liner in the color Zero. It’s a soft black, but if you’re looking for the blackest of black they have a new one in Perversion. Any time I buy UD products I make sure they’re on sale. Most of their smaller eye shadow palettes come with mini eyeliners… so HELLO freebie ;]!


Rimmel London: Soft Kohl Kajal Eye Pencil

Price: $3.19

Where to buy? Ulta ; E-Bay ; any drugstore.

You can’t  beat the price for this eyeliner! I have the colors Jet Black and Sable Brown. Rimmel London has a very natural selection of colors besides a blue, green, and a purple shade. It applies smoother than most drugstore eyeliners I’ve used and the staying power is pretty awesome as well.

**TIP** If you are having problems getting your eyeliner to glide on, heat it with a hair dryer for 3-5 seconds. Using a lighter will also do the trick, just hold the tip of the pencil  close to the flame for 3-5 seconds. To make sure you don’t burn your eyelid, gently touch the tip of the pencil to see if the product is NOT melted. This will indicate it’s cool enough, yet warm enough to use (if that makes sense) I’d advise using the hair dryer though seeing as it’s safest. I don’t want anyone to burn their house down! lol

Gel eyeliner is by far my favorite because it is so easy to work with and it has the best staying power! It is great for trying to achieve the perfect winged eyeliner or ‘cat eye’ because the product  is so smooth. To get that precise line, I like using the Sonia Kashuk Bent Eyeliner Brush or the Sigma E65 Brush which is listed below.

Maybelline: Eye Studio Lasting Drama Gel Eyeliner

Price: $9.99

Where to buy? Ulta ; E-Bay ; any drugstore.

This is hands down my favorite eyeliner of life, I have accidentally fallen asleep with this on and I wake up with it still being perfect. That my friends is TRUE staying power haha! Your waterline is the worst place for your eyeliner to wear off, so this is your best bet if you can’t always touch up your eyeliner through out the day. I have mine in Blackest Black. If you don’t have a brush, no worries… this comes with one!


Sonia Kashuk: Bent Eyeliner Brush

Price: $5.99

Where to buy?: Target ; Makeup Geek ; E-bay

Sigma: Small Angle E65 Brush

Price: $9.oo

Where to buy: Sigma Beauty ; E-bay


Liquid Eyeliner is probably the trickiest when it comes to applying it because it dries so fast. You need a steady hand, not only to create a clean precise look, but if you get it in your eyes… OUCH! I’ve had my whole eyeball turn black because I had an oopsie haha. It won’t kill you, I promise, it just stings horribly. I gotta warn a sister, right?! Most liquid liners that I have tried will crumble or is SO watery that the color doesn’t even apply. So far these are my favorites…

Urban Decay: 24/7 Liquid Eyeliner

Price: $19.00

Where to buy?  Urban Decay ; Ulta ; Sephora  ; E-bay

I’ve tried my fair share of liquid eyeliners and although I don’t care too much for the price, I’d say it is worth it if you’re wanting to invest in a good liquid eyeliner. I have mine in the color Perversion. As you can see it has a thin brush applicator which is good for making thin lines. This liner has a dark glossy finish to it, so if you’re into matte finishes, this may not be your love. The lasting power of this UD liquid eyeliner is not all day as it claims, but it does last the majority of the day!


Almay: Liquid Liner

Price: $6.99

Where to buy? Ulta ; E-Bay ; any drugstore.

Precise Black is a true deep dark black like the UD 24/7 liquid liner except this has a matte finish. This has a felt-tip applicator and can be a bit on the thick side if you don’t take your time with it. I personally like my eyeliner on the thicker side ;]. I’m a little iffy on the lasting power of this eyeliner, but it’s a cheaper alternative… plus it would be great for going over false eyelashes in covering the lash glue.

This last category probably doesn’t make any sense to you, but the biggest thing I’d like to emphasize is that makeup is not one dimensional. Eye shadow can be used as an alternative if you’re looking for a softer look. Some people don’t like the harshness that eyeliner usually gives, so if you’ve got an angled eye brush or whatever your favorite brush is… you’re set!

MAC: Single Eye Shadow in Carbon

Price: $15.00

Where to buy? MAC ; E-bay

This is obviously a tad expensive, but if it is going to substitute your eyeliner, it will be worth the money you paid for it. It would also be a great for going over pencil eyeliner as well. I only suggest this because it is such a popular true black eye shadow. MAC is known for their quality pigments.


Wet n Wild: Color Icon Palette in Greed

Price: $4.99

Where to buy?  E-Bay ; Drugstore Website ; any drugstore.

Any of the Wet N Wild palettes that have black in them are great, especially this palette because it has both a matte and shimmer black. Wet n Wild is one of the rare drugstore eye shadows that actually has good pigmentation. You just can’t beat the price.

I hope you guys enjoyed this blog and learned something. Every product listed besides the MAC Carbon eye shadow is all products that I have used… so every opinion I have about them is from my own personal experience.

Starting a YouTube Beauty Channel

So here it is… my first beauty video, my beauty favorites for the month of April. I give a small disclaimer in the beginning that I know my camera isn’t the best quality since I am recording on my iPhone 5C and the lighting isn’t that great either – again I am working on it. Until I know where God is leading this channel, it’s up in the air as to whether or not I’ll keep it going. If there’s anything you would like to see, just let me know and comment below:)! Thanks so much!

Keeping to myself + small rant.

As we ring in the new year, I find myself being quiet – keeping to myself, not wanting to talk to anyone or be bothered. Maybe it’s just a season in my life? Let’s go with that. For all I know it could be a really short season and end next week, but right now… all I know is that it feels strong. Most of the time when people clam up, it usually means there’s an issue they’re not wanting to discuss – but I don’t find myself in that situation. Instead, I just feel short of words and conversation.

If I’m not careful, that can easily creep over into my walk with God and I’ve already seen glimmers of that manifestation already. For example, the time I have spent reading my Bible has been half-hearted, you know, just to get it over with. Don’t get me wrong, I would prefer to do something out of obedience than to not do it at all. Even though I’m not out of the loop, I still feel that discouragement, like why even try if my heart isn’t into it. That’s the one of the biggest lies from Satan right there though – to lean on our feelings. We are so quick to let our flesh lead us instead of the Holy Spirit. I know people right now who are not walking with the Lord because the battle they were facing became “too hard”. God never promises easy, He just promises Himself.

For those that actually STILL keep up with this blog, I apologize that I don’t post regularly. If there’s any topics you’d like me to discuss either related to God or makeup, I’d be glad to hear your suggestions. Speaking of makeup, for those who keep up with the beauty gurus on YouTube – is it getting old for you too? It seems like everyone copies each other, been there done that, same old same old. There’s even a certain lingo they all have when referring to looks or trends that just gets old – why don’t they just teach beauty that doesn’t suggest we have to highlight like a drag queen to look like “Kim K” or to look like someone else. I’d like to look like me if that’s okay -haha. I honestly think it just pressures girls to wear excess makeup they don’t need, like the 90 steps to contouring.

Well I’ll leave this blog at that, thanks for reading :)!

Frustration against other Christians.

The title of this blog may already sound self-righteous to some and maybe to an extent there is a hint of some self-righteousness, but let me explain my heart. When I get mad at other Christians who knowingly and willingly and carelessly give into sin and act like it’s “no big deal”, that concerns me. Yes, let’s examine the plank in my eye. I know I have sin and my sin is a constant battle, but it bothers me. It saddens my heart to know how sinful I am and when I learn from my mistakes… I make them again. I don’t want to sound like a hypocrite right now because like I said, my heart is not there and I’m not judging these other Christians… but my heart breaks for them. 

My favorite verse of all time is James 1:22-25Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says. Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like someone who looks at his face in a mirror and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like. But whoever looks intently into the perfect law that gives freedom, and continues in it—not forgetting what they have heard, but doing it—they will be blessed in what they do.”

We remember that we’re Christians at church on Sundays, at Bible studies throughout the week, around Christian friends, or even family members. That light switch can be easily be turned off when we fit God in a box and only use Him as needed, especially in certain crisis’. Our faith needs to speak for itself… James 2:14-18 says “What good is it, my brothers and sisters, if someone claims to have faith but has no deeds? Can such faith save them? Suppose a brother or a sister is without clothes and daily food. If one of you says to them, “Go in peace; keep warm and well fed,” but does nothing about their physical needs, what good is it? In the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead. But someone will say, “You have faith; I have deeds.” Show me your faith without deeds, and I will show you my faith by my deeds. You believe that there is one God. Good! Even the demons believe that—and shudder.

It goes back to the James 1 Scripture I gave, we deceive ourselves so easily. Sadly, I don’t think some Christians realize they are being deceived and that this deception comes from Satan. The fact they have no clue either shows a hardened heart or they’ve given into the lie that God is satisfied with their sin, therefore abusing His grace. Satan likes it when we pat ourselves on the back after feeling convicted at church, but where’s the action accompanied by that conviction? 

Sin always comes back as a reflection of a SELFISH heart. We act like we’red owed something when in fact we’re owed NOTHING. God doesn’t need to give or do anything for you. Pardon my language, but if you’re a little butt-hurt because something doesn’t go your way… get over yourself. God is working at something deeper in your heart and life and if you can’t face that, you need to realize you are better with God than without Him. We act like such babies sometimes. 

I just needed to vent because a simple Facebook status would not suffice… plus I feel that here I have a larger audience who cares for my opinion on these things. Am I the only one who gets frustrated at this stuff? Let me reiterate the fact I know I am just as messed up, we all need accountability. I’m not saying I’m a better person or Christian because my works mean nothing to Jesus – He paid it all on the cross and I cannot add to that or earn it. 

20 things you can do to add a little joy into your life.

dino This isn’t going to be my typical lengthy blog where I rant and rant… I feel like there’s so many bad days, bad things, bad people, bad pains, just flat out bad crap that can get to us. There’s little things that always make me feel good and make me realize life isn’t so bad (despite all the stuff going on). I’m going to list some things that make me happy, they’re simple, but effective. Feel free to comment below the things that make you happy. Hopefully some of these things will inspire you in some way.

1.) Getting a manicure or pedicure. Changing up the color of your polish can make a girl feel good. I love me some glitter!

2.) Shaving your legs, well shaving everything! lol Release the beast.

3.) Facial, exfoliate and wear a good clay mask that will shrink those pores (my favorite one is the Mint Julep by Queen Helene).

4.) Move around the furniture in your room or house. It makes the space feel new!

5.) Go through all of your clothes, even the undies and toss aside the things you don’t wear anymore. If it’s just sitting there, it can either be gifted or donated. Either way, it gives you an excuse to go out and buy more stuff right? lol

6.) Now go through all of your makeup. You probably have products that have been sitting around foreverrr and they need to be thrown away or re-gift them to a friend. Again, this will give you the excuse to buy more makeup.

7.) Listen to music that brings back memories, so for me that would be anything from middle school to high school. *currently listening to the Mandy Moore station on Pandora*

8.) Wash your makeup brushes. I don’t do this enough, but when I do, I feel so accomplished.

9.) Always try new body washes, I hate having to use the same products over and over again.  I need new because it’s exciting. Switch up the scents or brands. Same goes with perfume, shampoo, conditioner, deodorant, lotion, body sprays, etc.

10.) A good chick flick. I typically don’t watch these kind of movies because it’s not my thing… but once in awhile when the husband is at work I’ll go in total girl mode and cry my eyes out to something or repeatedly shout “AWWWW!”

11.) Buy new bed sheets. You don’t need to redecorate your whole room, just a simple change of your comforter can set a different mood for your room.

12.) Re-purpose a piece of clothing, if there’s a shirt you don’t wear much, experiment and cut it into something new. YouTube has a ton of tutorials on transforming t-shirts.

13.) Don’t buy new purses, if you’re someone who keeps your old purses, recycle through them. They’ve always felt brand new to me when I re-worn them.

14.) Selfies. Yes, people bash the idea of them… but playing around your camera phone when you feel dolled up isn’t a bad thing. If it’s funny or cute, post it. Think of it as a mini photo-shoot.

15.) Get some sun. Lay out for 15 – 30 minutes with some SPF. I always feel thinner if I have a little color on my skin.

16.) Trim your hair or your bangs. Cutting off those dead ends makes your hair feel and look healthier.

17.) Light a candle.

18.) Wear a piece of jewelry you don’t normally wear. For me that would be a cute toe ring, they make me feel so decorated haha.

19.) Read a good book and finish it. All too often we start books and never finish them. Accomplishment is the best feeling ever and learning a thing or two never hurt either.

20.) And last but not least, my most favorite thing to unwind with and the most simple is… a nice hot shower. There’s nothing more relaxing than to feel clean and to smell good.

Not so bold and unashamed of the Gospel.

A lot of Christians, including myself, like to quote Romans 1:16 “For I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God that brings salvation to everyone who believes: first to the Jew, then to the Gentile.” We wholeheartedly believe this and this may be true for us to a certain extent, but we have to remember who these words were coming from at the time. Paul, the author of Romans and of many books in the Bible proclaimed the Gospel in a hostile time. To be baptized and to say Jesus was God was a one way ticket to prison or execution. Living in America we can’t quite grasp the severity of proclaiming Jesus as Lord and Savior because there is no persecution other than being told we’re bigoted and judgmental. Paul writes these words while he is in prison, believed to have been waist high in human waste. The state of his living was not good, but this man meant his words. He lived these words out, hence the horrible conditions he was in.

My pastor this morning emphasized the importance of the Gospel, the Word of God, it has power. It saves and changes lives and it is by hearing the Word that people open their eyes to the reality of their sin. Wearing crosses whether tattooed or by jewelry, going to church, or wearing t-shirts that say we “<3 God” doesn’t hold any power like the Word can. People need to hear the Word of God, Jesus was the Word and we think just by living for God that people can read us. Yes, we are a light separated from this dark world, but because we are the light we need to shine truth on God’s Word. People are in darkness and on their way to hell because we’re too afraid to speak up. We want the approval of man to the point we neglect Jesus’s lasts words and mission to go make more disciples. Will we offend people? Yes. Will we annoy them? Yes. Will we push certain people away from us? Yes. Could we lose our friends? Yes. The things that will happen to us on this earth don’t even compare to what these people will suffer for eternity – separation from God.

Francis Chan’s book Multiply touches base with the fact that Christians will walk away from church services with conviction and almost pat themselves on the back for feeling bad. It’s like that’s what we’re looking for, when we leave church are we moved with emotion? It seems like that’s our only goal. We should be moved to action, we should be out there getting our hands dirty. Satan has us where he wants us, complacent Christians who feel conviction, but do nothing about it. We’re not a threat to Satan. I don’t know about you, but when I get up in the morning I want Satan to be like “Oh no, there’s that woman of God!” I want him to feel threatened.

With my uncle being laid up in ICU after heart surgery, practically on his death bed, my dad has raised hands held high in prayer over my uncle. It doesn’t sound like a big deal, but this was in front of working nurses, people who are trying to help on my uncle get back to health. I have been so moved by my father’s faith and him being unashamed in public prayer. I feel so ashamed of myself, Jesus is risen and I’m afraid to proclaim that to people? Do I read my Bible every day and pray? Yes. To the world’s standards my walk with God is good, but I know that is far from the truth. I need to trust in Jesus despite my circumstances and walk out in faith knowing that His Word, when preached, will not return void.

We all have seasons Jesus needs to walk us through and I’m not telling you to look for sin, but if you’ve been complacent… ask the Lord to challenge you and break you of the things you’re putting your trust in.

^^ Please take the time to watch this video by Kari Jobe called “Forever”. It is such a beautiful song! So much truth.

Fasting for thought.

I’m not the typical fasting Christian, I guess I haven’t practiced making it a huge part of my life… but the times I do incorporate it, it’s amazing what God shows me. Most people think of fasting as in food, but it can be from anything that you’re attached to and it consumes your time. I’m taking a few days break from Facebook and let me tell you… It’s been peaceful lol! I’ve got so much accomplished since I’m not wasting all my time with idle phone surfing. I finished reading a book my sister bought me, organized all the drawers in our bed room & game room, cleaned my makeup vanity including the brushes, and I even washed, waxed, and windexed the car today lol!!

Besides getting everything cleaned up, I’ve cleaned up my thinking. The Bible tells us to be still and know He is God, yet how many of us just sit in the quiet of our bedrooms or the tranquility of being outside? I’m sitting on my back porch as I write this with the wind blowing through my hair. Fresh sweet air! Oh how we take the sweet blessings in life God has given us for granted.

Social media constantly encourages us to share our hate for people either through Facebook statuses or pinning pictures on Pinterest about how some girl is a whore. So much negativity. So many temptations to grow numb to the fact that those people we talk about are God’s creation. I will admit, most people are no walk in the park but if we humbles ourselves we’d realize we aren’t either.

If something is causing negativity in your life, distant yourselves and realize you haven’t taken full blame for things in your heart.


A good cry.

Never underestimate the power of a good cry. I don’t know about you, but if I’m having a bad day or a bad week I can sense an emotional breakdown rearing it’s ugly head. Don’t get me wrong… I think they have a beautiful ending of relief, it’s just intense. Sometimes things have to get worse before they get better. With sore eyes and a stuffy nose, I write this at 1 in the morning and just having had poured my heart out to God.

I don’t know where I would be without my faith in Jesus Christ. He is my rock and my shelter that I take refuge in. I get so upset about the things going on in my life (health wise) but I know deep down it’s all a part of His plan. A plan I have very little hope in seeing sometimes. His ways are not our ways. I don’t want to be so hung up on earthly things that I neglect the eternal and my mission while I’m here on this earth.

God knows the frailty of our human bodies and spirits, He gets it. He doesn’t want us to suck it up and suppress our feelings. “Oh I have Jesus so I should be happy no matter what!” I don’t think so. God is glorified when we give up our control, when we let our face get red and ugly from sobbing so many tears. I see opportunity in being broken, I see how God is using his chisel to chip back the pieces of myself that cling to things other than Him for comfort or for happiness.